Food Diary - Day 4

Today was so much better - I was more consistent with eating and what I consumed had good nutrition value. i also thought about my water consumption and realised it was down by a lot so I have been conscience to be having 2-3ltrs today.

Breakfast: Nespresso 92cals and an Optifast Coffee Shake 209cals ( I had to do groceries today and this was all I had)
Lunch: Chicken and Salad sandwich 384cals
Snack: Protein Bar 124cals
Dinner: Prawn Salad made by me 242cals and 1 Oyster Kilpatrick 27cals

Calorie Total: 1078

Exercise: 1 hour burning 584cals

Look out for the Prawn Salad recipe it's coming tomorrow :)

Food Diary - Day 3

Gah another fizzer it was my mum's birthday so we had lunch over at my parents house - I really didn't do that bad and I can see where I am falling over... anyway here is the ugly truth:

Breakfast: 1/2 cup Bircher with Nespresso Coffee - 350cals combined as an estimation

Lunch: Small piece of chicken ( I bought Chickens and had them cut into 1/4's and I ate half a 1/4 so an 1/8th?????) 2 tbs of potato salad and about the same of my sisters pear and parmesan so to be fair I think 450cals to be conservative????

Dinner 1/4 of a lasagna and 2 pieces of garlic bread we had in the fridge : 350cals

Throw in 1 glass of champagne(85cals)  and 1 home made Gin and Tonic ( diet tonic water 65cals) and no real water well it was dismal but not as bad as it could have been.

Daily Calories: 1300

Exercise: None - Sunday is my day of rest :)

Food Diary - Day 2

So today was a epic failure and if you read on you will see why:

Breakfast: 2 rashes of bacon and 1 egg ( no idea on cals but I am guessing between 250-300)

Coffee: Nespresso Homemade 92cals

This is where it gets ugly - I had a Bridal Shower/Hens at a nice wine bar in Mornington - I was the driver so no alcohol - and the food looked delicious but I held firm and only ate 1/3rd of a sandwich and that was all until 9pm when I got home and I made nachos and ate a small portion.

I would estimate I only consumed 600-700cals for the day which is very poor and the food I did consume had no real nutrition value which I am most upset with.

Exercise: 1hr 20mins at PT - 660cals

Day 2 = Epic Fail!

Food Diary

So I was talking to my trainer about whether I should pick up an extra training session (I do 5 already) and she asked me why and so I spoke to her about my weight plateau (basically I have been gaining and loosing the same few kilos for awhile) so she asked me to keep a food diary and so I figure I might as well publish it here (at least then I won't loose the piece of paper it is written on)

Day 1:

Breakfast: 1/2 Organic Burcher Muesli ( I have no idea on cals so I am going to be conservative and say 350cal) and 1/2 coffee at 46cals



Lunch: Ham and Salad Sandwich 367cals

Dinner: Chicken and Salad 331cals ( I based this on the Chicken coming in at 231cals and the Salad being 100cal again probably conservative but I like to have a buffer)


Snacks: 1 coffee at 92cals ( Nespresso home made using 1/2 cup full cream milk and 1/2 teaspoon of organic coconut sugar) 1 piece of home made Muesli Bar 191cals ( look out for the recipe soon)

Total Calories: 1377

Exercise: 3 hours = 1237cals

Daily Deficit*: 1060cals

All in all a great day even though I went over my calorie intake by 177cals I did more then enough exercise to cover this :)

I cried today

Yes yes I did and I am not ashamed to admit to it but they were not sad tears they were happy ones.

I went shopping today as I have some events coming up and I have no clothes that are suitable and I thought while the kids were at daycare I could do it in peace. Off I went to our local DFO ( Direct Factory Outlets) which can I say was a major disappointment  - you could tell the stock was the clothing that they couldn't sell in the full price shops!

I then ventured to a big shopping centre in the hope it would have the answer and boy did it even! My first stop was jean shopping - I used to dread this, having to buy size 24/26 is depressing and unless you have been there you have no idea how much your self esteem takes a hammering. A lovely assistant approached me ( can I say I have never really had people help me so this is still a new and exciting thing for me) and I asked her about the jeans I had on as I wanted to replace them. She asked me what size I was and I said " Well these are a 14 and a little big so I guess a 13 if you stock them" she looked at me and replied " Honey you are a 10 or 12 in this style" enter me rolling my eyes in my head and just replied with " ok"

I head off to the change room with my 10 and 12 and thought no hard in trying the 10 just to see where I was at with regards to sizing ect - well now we get to the crying part - THEY FUCKING* FIT - and not just suck in as hard as you can with giant muffin top no they fit properly I looked at myself and turned and then headed out to the big mirrors just to have a walk and a look and then it hit me - I was in a size 10 and then it started the tears.  I quickly rushed back into the change room but not before the sales assistant caught me and asked " The 10 right - they look hot" - then I lost it completely and through my tears I had to explain that 18 months ago I was starting to outgrow my size 24 and into size 26 - she was so happy for me she started crying and it was like a love fest 60's style.

I will freely admit that psychologically I don't see the changes in my appearance and if I am honest it scares me a little. I am hoping with time my head will catch up to the rest of me and once I reach goal I can fully embrace the maintenance faze. I don't think anyone can ever understand what it's like to be overweight, obese and in the end for me morbidly obese my whole life to be able to go into any shop and fit the clothes ( I also bought a top from the same shop in a XS).

My first ever size 10 label

* A little apology if I have offended anyone with the use of the F word I felt it was needed to express my absolute astonishment.

The Mexican Stand Off!!!

Dramatic I know but that's what it felt like........

A little background info: When I was 22 I was diagnosed with PCOS and told I was infertile, I met Dave ( my almost husband at 24) by 25 I was pregnant with Lochie, had given birth by 26 and we had yet to celebrate 2 years together. A total whirlwind romance I can hear you all think and in truth it was - more on that another time.

When Lochie was 12 months old we found out I was pregnant again we were thrilled we had hoped it would happen again but weren't sure with my previous diagnosis, I had a blood test to confirm at 5 weeks but had to have a secondary blood test (HCG) to re-confirm as my levels were very low. Second blood test was again confirmed and we started to get excited, it was very shot lived as I had some spotting and pains but nothing consistent. The bleeding stopped but the pains would come every now and again, fast forward to 8 weeks pregnant and I have a bleed not huge but enough to get me worried. Long and the short of it after a scan I was told by my GP I had suffered a Miscarriage, we were devastated but decided to try again as soon as we got the all clear. 3 days later I woke up in extreme pain and Dave rushed me straight to our local ED, waiting 8 hours we finally saw a doctor who ordered a scan, as soon as the scan started the technician pointed out a mass and all I remember him saying as we walked back to the waiting room he said to Dave " You take care of her".

Once we saw the doctor again he gave us the news that I was having an Ectopic Pregnancy - I had no idea what it was only that I was being admitted, give morphine for the pain and told I would have surgery that night. I won't go into it here but you can imagine how we both felt.

After the ectopic pregnancy I fell pregnant again after 5 months which resulted in a MC and 2 months after that I fell pregnant with Zali - as you can imagine we had been through a lot and my body was suffering and I feel that resulted in me having a very difficult pregnancy fraught with problems ( more on that later)

Which brings me to tonight and " The Mexican Stand Off" - I feel that because of the problems getting pregnant and staying pregnant we were how shall I say more lenient with Zali then we ever were with Lochie and as they say the seeds that were sewn are being well reaped now! Zali has been giving me grief for months over going to bed and tonight I decided I'd had enough - she wanted to sleep in our bed and I said no and it started.. the screaming ( no tears) just the noise, I am sure anyone who was walking past had the thought that I was killing my child.

I said good night and gave her a kiss and walked out all the while Zali is screaming her lungs out totally put out that I dare leave her while she was having a hissy fit. I gave her 5mins and went back in - the same thing " Daddy bed, Daddy bed" I stood firm I said no gave her a kiss and walked out, yes you guessed it more screaming. This went on for half an hour and finally she gave in and let me give her a cuddle and put her in the cot but not before relenting and letting her have a book and a train in bed with her.

I would say it was more my win then hers but I think i have laid the foundation to build on to perhaps not be so dramatic tomorrow night. Parenting is a hard game and I wish I had all the answers but I am not perfect and I do the best I can in the situation I am faced with.

I do apologise for such a long post and it's a little mixed with issues and events but you will learn that about me I like to mix it up :)

Veggie Patch

When we renovated our backyard 4 years ago we made sure we had a place to grow our own produce. To be honest I didn't take a keen interest until this year, and now the children are growing up we are making sure they understand where the foods we eat come from.

I have loved watching Lochie ( Master 4) inspect his strawberry plant as he has watched it grow from a tiny seedling to a plant that is over running one of my planting boxes.

Lochie's Strawberry Plant

We also have Tomatoes ( 4 varieties), rosemary, parsley, coriander, chives and basil. I think we need to expand with more pots to be able to plant more. Oh we also have a lime tree and we plan to get a Lemon tree to sit opposite - I am sucker for symmetry :)

mmmmm tomatoes

Lime Tree

Little Limes that we hope will grow into big Limes :)

Veggie patches/gardens are so easy to start and to keep both Lochie and Zali ( Miss 2) love to help water, and they love to watch as little buds bloom into something that they can eat and I can tell you most of the tomatoes will be eaten straight off the vine before they get to the table :)

Hello

Where to start..... for some reading this you will know that I used to have a blog called "Delightfully Yours" - for some time now I have thought about starting to blog again and thought why not and so here I am.

Over the last 18 months I have taken a journey, a journey to better myself and make myself healthy. Having shed just on 55kg with some more to go I feel it's time to get back to outside interest's and food is a major interest ;)

Through this time my family and I have slowly changed our ways and introduced new eating habits - we have gone organic and now instead of throwing out half the fridge at the end of the week it is now empty as I use everything before I buy more.

A major factor in wanting to change was not only for myself but for my children, I didn't want them to grow in a house that promoted "unhealthy" eating as normal. I don't like using the term "fat" I have heard it and been called it far too many times in my life and don't want my children to define people as fat and thin more my partner and I want to promote a healthy and active lifestyle with treats every now and again.

If you have read this far I am amazed I have so much to share and I hope you will enjoy it as much as I will posting.